I see you world... can you see me?


Now, if you put me through in your time of need, I am sure to call to help indeed. Lately I stay silent, thinking thoughts at lightening speed, heightened by the feedback and forth reciprocations of situations rather unexplained; I maintain relations. In lamen's, it's a vibe I'd felt: deja-vu inside myself. I spoke it verbally, made sure all of them had heard of me, and believe I'm well connected, not a prophet who's been resurrected. Trust to "not expect that" when I bust the entire effect to match my specs and the blueprints, in the true sense of these words: God, he lives within, and all of this he's heard... every word.

And You can still see through Me like a Carona without a lime.

Dum Diddy Dum Diddy Dum Dum Dum

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Friday, November 14, 2008

"Our greatest glory consists not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall."
--Oliver Goldsmith

"Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear, not the absence of fear."
--Mark Twain


"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person that you are."
--Kurt Cobain


Monday, May 19, 2008

In your natural state of being, you have no sense of identity distinct from the Creator, except when you are engaged in a relationship. On this level of being, identity comes into focus only in the context of a relationship with some other aspect of being that has become objectified, much as my identity of a bodhisattva comes into being through my relationship with you. When such a relationship is not taking place, that particular expression of you does not exist; you float effortlessly in the potential of being. You are not annihilated, but all definitions of you are, and you are released from their restraining influence, allowed to expand into a state of love and perfection.

By and by, if it should happen that You are needed for a particular function, you will still be there, for your form identity is a specific cell in a specific organ of a larger being. When the next energizing impulse comes, it also brings your definition and instruction. You come into the necessary degree of focus for whatever is required.

Throughout the course of your existence, you continually oscillate, like the wave function that you essentially are, in and out of focus, in and out of definition, always moving back and forth, like the pendulum on a clock or the heart of an atom, out of the unity of being with God, into a finite expression of God's infinite potential in Self, and then back into unity once more, back and forth. This is the natural rhythm of your existence, just as it is mine. It is the song of God, the rhythm of life itself.

Whenever the divine impulse calls upon your services and brings you into form, you encounter other beings of infinite variety, on errands and excursions in worlds of love and light that are impossible to describe. As this happens, you experience, for the duration of your contact, both an identity and a linear time world, but in the course of your encounter, you are still aware of your unity to creation. You do not lose the certainty of your oneness with God. You are aware of  your form identity and of the motion of time, yet you oscillate, faster than the speed of light, back and forth between your pre-manifest state, and your human-role form.

Think about it.
Really, think about it.
This is nothing more or less than every atom of physical creation is doing all the time.

And in a healthy state, you are functioning in two realities at once. Half the time you are focused on your form identity, and the other half on your identity with the Totality of What Is. In a fallen state of consciousness, you find yourself trapped with your awareness on one side only, while the actual substance of your being continues to function on both sides. This is reality, but you are asleep. In the reality that you now think to be the only reality, you are fragmented; the human race seems to be composed of a multitude of beings. In the other reality, there is only you.

I am here to wake you up.

There is really only one of you who needs to hear this message.





It is important that you return to a consciousness of your true self. For though you still exist in both realities, unconsciousness of your identity with creation is cutting off the flow of energy that creates Life.

How did you lose the ability to switch your consciousness from one to the other?
How did you fall into the illusion of separation?

I will tell you.
It was through a simple lack of faith.
It was through a loss of confidence in the absolute perfection of the universal design. This was brought about by the entry of a single factor into your existence: fear.

Fear profits you nothing.
Fear does not help you grow.
Fear does not help you love.
Fear does not help you live.

Cast off your fear; it holds you back from being amazing.


Wednesday, March 19, 2008

That's how it do.



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How's by You?





Friday, January 25, 2008

Go. Go forth. Go forth and die.
Go. Go forth. Go forth and fry.
Sun. And heat. And constant paranoia.
Forget, My feet...
... That pain of no expression.
The fight of this oppression,
It might make an impression.
So go.
Go forth.
Go forth and fly.
Go.
Go forth.
Go forth with life.
The sound. The beat. The bombs. The streets.
Protect, the weak...
... My right to intervention,
A spirit insurrection.
And for Me, there's no exception.
So go.
Go forth.
Go forth tonight.
Go.
Go forth.
Go forth in flight.
Go.
Go forth.
Go forth for right.
Go.
Go forth.
Go forth, alright?



Thursday, January 17, 2008

So, right about now is when I begin sabotaging the relationship.
Every time, same time.
It only takes a couple months for Me to find some fundamental flaw,
That one thing I can't let go of,
That I think means the world to Me...
Well, if it does or not,
I suppose the real problem is that I cannot bring Myself to open up
If I could,
I'm pretty sure I could have a successful relationship.
I'm cold.
Or rather, I've grown cold.
For someone like Kelli, who's known Me long before that coldness,
It's difficult to see what I have become,
Rather than what I was,
Like that impetuously eager little boy always trying to do good by others.
And I have no way of explaining it when explanation is most critical.
At first, opening up doesnt seem that difficult;
Just expressing most of the stuff I write about.
But then it comes time to open up,
And let the feelings flow...
... and silence.
Andrea said something pretty profound that I think I'll be carrying with Me for a long time:
"You had no problems expressing Yourself before... why not now?"
And She had said that after I failed to open up.
Same things happening again,
And while I recognize what's going on, and maybe understand a little of why,
I am afraid that I don't know how to remedy this...
... I may find fundamental flaws in significant others,
But they are nothing compared to the fundamental flaws I find within Myself.




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